Review: How To Kill Your Family by Bella Mackie

 Caution - This review does contain spoilers.

Title: How To Kill Your Family
Author: Bella Mackie
Genre: Crime Thriller

Trigger warnings: death of a parent, descriptions of murder and death, descriptions of sex acts, references to suicide, references to drug use.

Rating: 

The Plot

Our protagonist Grace Bernard is a young woman living in London who discovers that her absent billionaire father had abandoned her and her mother both emotionally and financially, leaving her mother to bring Grace up as a single parent with a very low income. He had even rejected her dying mother's pleas for him to support Grace, who at that point was a pre-teen, after her death. As a result, Grace hatches a revenge scheme again her father and his immediate family. Grace one by one kills these family members but, before she can complete the final of her schemes and murder her father, she finds herself in prison, and for a murder she did not even commit. Whilst in prison, to kill time and avoid having to speak to her cellmate, she writes her story and this retelling forms the narrative for the novel. 

My thoughts

 As a fiction debut for author Bella Mackie (the Sunday Times bestselling author of Jog On: How Running Saved My Life), I found How To Kill Your Family to be a real page turner and one which I was able to consume over just a couple of days. Also, is it acceptable to give a book bonus points in a rating for having a title which quite frankly terrifies everyone who sees you reading it? 

You don't often expect to find humour within a novel about murder yet Bella Mackie has successfully woven comedy throughout the book. The majority of the killings take place in ridiculous ways which are almost satirical and therefore not triggering to the reader, which was one of her aims as an author. As a result of this, How To Kill Your Family is not a book full of blood, guts and gore, despite being about murder. Bella Mackie was interviewed on the Book Off! podcast shortly after the release of the novel and it was a fascinating listen. She talks about her inspiration for how she pitched the violence within the story and explained it was in response to the general misogyny of the coverage of crime. So instead of a story which focuses on the gory violence committed by a male against a nameless faceless female victim, she wanted to write a story where the violence was almost a background feature and the reader's focus was on the story and the motive.

How To Kill Your Family does lack character development in any character other than the anti-hero protagonist Grace but I found this to contribute effectively to the unusual situation where we as readers are rooting for the serial killer protagonist and feeling very little sympathy for her victims. I delighted in how clever and well thought out each of her plots actually were and we, as readers, get to inhabit Grace's mind and follow along as she plans and executes (if you pardon the pun) these murders, anticipating the details of each murder as we go along.  And dare I say it but we actually get some satisfaction when they happen, or at least I was satisfied when they took place and you can take from that what you will about my personality! 

In terms of pace, I found the narrative to be largely medium-paced although Mackie has skilfully woven in some narration of a slower pace and some faster-paced scenes. Personally I found this to be very effective as I think when you are writing something which is ultimately the written version of a character's inner monologue, you need to account for the ways in which human thoughts can vary in terms of both depth and pace dependent on a multitude of factors. There is also very little dialogue to contribute to the pace.

My original star rating of How To Kill Your Family was 3* as I found the ending, with a new character introduced in the final chapters who altered the course of the ending, to be very disappointing. But upon further research into the novel and the author's inspiration behind the plot, I've given it an additional star as the explanation this gave showed how effective a literary choice this was; I just required a little help to realise it. Reading her explanation triggered a lightbulb moment in my head when suddenly it all made sense and therefore my attitude to the ending changed! In an interview with Marie Claire magazine Bella Mackie said "This book is all about men having power over women and the system being rigged to make men win." and this provides really sums up how the introduction of Harry, a male character, was used to alter the destiny of the protagonist. Grace's primary aim in the killing of her father's immediate family was to cut off any other potential lines of inheritance for her father's million pound fortune, therefore leaving all of the money to herself. But suddenly Harry comes into the mix and gets to take that win away from Grace. I think it is also very effective that there is no dialogue or interaction between Grace and Harry in those final chapters, the ending is told through Harry's voice, reiterating the idea that in society men get to win and women don't get a say in it. It is an infuriating ending for the reader but this really emphasises the message about the female role in society Bella Mackie was trying to convey. I do, however, wish that there could have been more clarity on the reason for the ending without me as a reader having to research myself. This could have been effectively done in the form of an afterword. Based on other reviews of this novel I've read, this clarity was definitely needed for most readers as it really takes a lot of thought before you have that lightbulb moment of understanding.

I also found the subplot of the crime she didn't commit (yet found herself in prison for) very predictable from an early stage. It is difficult because I loved the concept and irony of her being imprisoned for the one murder she didn't commit yet this part of the plot fell very flat for me. I potentially would have liked this subplot to cause more tension, through a possibility of it linking Grace to her actual crimes for example. I also found this 'crime' to be very frustrating as she is ultimately convicted of something when the entirety of the case for prosecution was based on eyewitness testimonies of people who weren't even on the balcony. I understand that these flaws in the case were part of the reason she was able to launch the successful appeal needed to get her out of prison and able to carry on her murder missions but it just missed the mark for me.

Overall, How To Kill Your Family is a fantastic read for anyone with a dark sense of humour and anyone who wants a crime thriller focused on the motive and carefully planning of the killings, instead of drawn-out descriptions of violence and gore. It is a fantastic debut fiction novel from Bella Mackie and has made me very excited to read her future works.

Have you read How To Kill Your Family? I'd love to hear your thoughts!


The Relaunch of Yours, Chloe

Hello old friend.

It feels quite odd to be sitting down and writing this, as all has been rather quiet on the blog front for nearly two years. I took a blogging break when I went through a period of poor mental health in Autumn 2020 and boy did the break end up being longer than anticipated! A few days turned into a week, then a month and before I knew it I had left my little blog on the metaphorical doorstep for two years.

As it turns out, this little breather has done me the world of good; a chance to recharge my blogging batteries was just what I needed. It's given me a chance to revaluate what I want this blog to be. I started writing my blog back in 2012 when I was fourteen. And somehow we now find ourselves a decade later and I'm in my mid-twenties. Understandably a lot has changed. I've left school, graduated university, started to build a career, moved to a different part of the UK and set up home with my partner. I've evolved and grown as a person, I'm more sure of my identity and what kind of life I want to lead than little fourteen year old me was when she started writing about beauty and fashion ten years ago. 

As a result of all of this, it naturally felt about time that Yours, Chloe was given a new lease of life. I've had a little tweak of the design, started utilising some new social media platforms and thought carefully about the kinds of things I want to be writing about in this little online world of mine. 

Two of my biggest passions are books and talking about mental health and wellbeing, so these are going to form the general basis for content here on Yours, Chloe. My current strategy for posts will be:


Wednesday: Wellness Wednesday. 

You can expect posts about mental health and wellbeing, including self-care, mindfulness and personal growth.


Sunday: Bookish Sunday.

This is my day to post about all things literature. You can expect book reviews, roundups of what I've been reading, book suggestions and hopefully a few blog tours and other bookish content thrown in for good measures. 

On a side note: I really wish I could think of a snazzy alliterative title for Sunday's posts also so if you have any suggestions please send them my way, I would be eternally grateful!


To celebrate the relaunch of Yours, Chloe, I have already posted two blog posts:

-  A review of How To Kill Your Family by Bella Mackie. Click here to read my review. 

- My 2022 Mid-year Reading Roundup: sharing my reading statistics and mini reviews of all of the books I've read so far this year. Click here to read this post.


Giveaway

My mid-year reading roundup post also contains a giveaway, in celebration of my blog relaunch! You can win a copy of a book of your choice, from the list of books I've read so far in 2022. 

The giveaway is open to everyone living in a country Book Depository ships to and is open now! It ends on 4th October 2022 at midnight (GMT).

Click here to enter the giveaway.


So without further ado, let's get on with the show. Welcome back to Yours, Chloe if you're an old faithful friend, or welcome if you're joining me for the first time. It's an honour to have you and I do hope you enjoy my little slice of the internet.

How I Source A Gorgeous Secondhand Wardrobe On eBay

There's a big push on 'slow fashion' at the moment and it's one of the only fashion things I can actually say I got to the party first with. If you're not clued up, slow fashion goes against the fast fashion industry and it's cheap, mass produced items, commonly designed to imitate the designs we're seeing on the runway. Slow fashion focuses on shopping consciously with a focus on the sustainability of our wardrobes. One aspect of slow fashion encourages the recycling, up-cycling and re-purposing of pre-loved clothes and this is what I want to focus on today.

I'm a bit of an eBay fanatic; I can't get enough of it. I use it to create a wardrobe full of second-hand clothes which suit my style and personality. And I often get compliments about the piece's I'm wearing which turn into surprise when I say 'oh thank you, I got it on eBay'. For some reason I think my generation on the whole tend to turn their nose up at secondhand clothing but I'm so passionate about it.

My wardrobe is largely sourced secondhand and this is for a number of reasons. Firstly, it's a heck of a lot cheaper! I very rarely spend more than £5 on an item on eBay; if truth be told, I manage to nab most of the items I buy for around the £1 mark. When you think about how much these items would cost new in the shops, I'm saving yourself tonnes of cash. Secondly, it helps to make my wardrobe stand out a little bit more. When you shop secondhand, you can source gorgeous pieces that are no longer on the market and through that your outfits can become more unique. Forget the latest Spring 2020 Topshop pieces that everyone and their mum is wearing; shop secondhand from seasons gone by and you're so much less likely to walk down the street past 3 girls also rocking the same skirt as you. And thirdly, it's a more sustainable and eco-friendly way to shop.

I recently nabbed this beautiful Next jumper for less than a fiver, which I am rather chuffed with. It was new with the tags so I saved a pretty penny on it. Today I styled it with my New Look burgundy mini skirt and black Accessorize ankle boots.

Today I thought I'd share five of my best tips for sourcing a truly gorgeous wardrobe on eBay, full of pre-loved clothing which still has a whole lot of life left in it.

1. Think outside the box with your searches.
Don't just search 'Size 10 top' or 'Size 14 dress' and keep it at that, eBay is a big place and there are tonnes of gems to be found if you know what to search for. Search brand names you love, specific styles (like 'peter pan collar' or 'tea dress') or occasion names (such as 'casual', 'work' or 'races'). The search 'blogger' also pulls up some fantastic pieces as worn by style bloggers.

2. Don't limit your searches by size.
When you search eBay you're searching through a mountain of different brands, all of which have different sizing so it's best to not limit your searches by only looking at one size. Select a range of sizes surrounding your dress size, for example I'll include size 6-12 and S-M in my searches to make sure I'm not limiting my potential findings.

3. Save your favourite searches.
With eBay it is really simple to save your favourite searches or sellers and have the links to new listings emailed to you each day. I have picked a handful of my favourite fashion brands and have alerts set up so that all of the new listings related to that brand come up in a notification on my phone. It means that you never miss a gorgeous new item and often get a head start when it comes to watching and starting to bid on the piece. To do this on the eBay app, just type in the search you want and then hit the little heart button on the top left hand corner, where it says 'Save'. You can also do this for your favourite sellers so you never miss an item.

4. Try misspelling your searches.
We all know that eBay is a big place so it's unsurprising that some fantastic items can get lost in it's depths. When sellers are uploading lots of items one after the other it's easy for a misspelling to slip through unseen. By simply altering the spelling of your much loved brands you can discover listings nobody else has spotted and nab yourself a true bargain. For example, I managed to secure a beautiful Joanie top for just 99p simply by adding another n when I typed it into the search bar.

5. Don't bid unless it's special.
I've saved my most important tip for last because it's an important one. When you scroll through the app and find so many gorgeous fashion bargains peeping back at you, it's easy to go a bit click crazy and bid left, right and centre. But it's important to step back and really consider before you bid. Do I really love this piece? What will I wear it with? When will I wear it? Is the cost worth it? I like to go through listings and watch them to give me time to contemplate the purchase before I commit and only about 10% of my watched items actually end up in my wardrobe.

Do you tend to shop on eBay? Do you have any tips?
I'd love to hear about your best eBay bargain too!

April's Happy Things

Well here we are... it's May. The past two months seemed to have lasted about a year in themselves so boy am I glad to welcome May into the lockdown party. Not only is it my birth month, it's also typically the sign that Summer is well and truly on the way.

But before we give May all the attention, I want to look back on the month just gone and reflect.

I decided to start doing month in review posts again a little while back but it's all gone tits up, quite frankly, as I don't know how I can really make 'today I stayed at home... and today I stayed at home again... and today you guessed it I stayed at home' exciting enough for a read-worthy blog post. So I've decided to do my monthly review posts a little differently for the time being and focus on sharing the things that have been keeping me entertained this past month. A glimpse into my lock-down life, if you will.

So, without further ado, are some of the things which have kept me busy and fueled my happy in April:

Reading
During the lock down I've tried to smash out my ever growing to-read list and it's going rather well, if I do say so myself. I've been loving historical fiction lately and really enjoyed Rose Under Fire by Elizabeth Wein and One Day In Oradour by Helen Watts. As always, I'm also a sucker for a bit of YA fiction and have just finished Birthday by Meredith Russo. Boy is that book incredible! Next on my to-read list is Call Me Evie by J.P Pomare. It's been sat on my to-read pile for a little while now and I can't wait to sink my teeth into it.

Watching
Boy have I watched a lot of telly during this lockdown! It's been a great opportunity to get through some of the programs I've been wanting to watch for a while. 

Killing Eve is back with a vengeance and I'm loving it; although not loving having to wait a week between episodes! April also play host to the last ever episodes of Criminal Minds. Although I needed a good few days to process saying goodbye to the BAU, I've now settled in to watching it again from the very beginning. There's nothing like a bit of Agent Derek Morgan to cure the lockdown blues! I also loved the latest series of Our Girl. I was initially unsure about the new series - and still a firm member of the #WeMissElvis club - but by this point I'm loving it.

This month I've also been loving re-watching some of my favourite examples of classic British telly. I've introduced Johnny to the Vicar of Dibley and Four In A Bed and have been watching Outnumbered on Netflix. We've also been watching Doctor Who (surprise surprise) and thoroughly enjoying the #SubwaveNetwork goings on on twitter. If you're not clued up, people are watching past doctor who episodes at the same time across the globe and live tweeting them. They've also had cast and crew members (including David Tennant, Matt Smith and some of their best companions) sharing their thoughts/feelings/memories live on twitter as they watch along too. Totally geeky but totally fantastic!

Listening To
I've found lockdown to be the perfect time to catch up on all of the podcasts I've been missing. I'm subscribed to so many fantastic ones but find I rarely have the time to properly sit down and give them the attention they deserve so now is perfect. My current go-to is the Off Menu podcast, hosted by the briliantly funny James Acaster and Ed Gamble. If you're not clued up on the setup, each episode they welcome in a guest (often a fellow comedian or 'celeb' but there are also sometimes people from the food industry) into a 'dream restaurant' where they can choose their dream meal (we're talking starter, main, side dish, dessert and drink - the whole shebang). It's such an easy listen that always has me giggling away so it's become the perfect bedtime companion for me.

Cooking
We've been trying to make the most of our slow cooker whilst we've been at home. A personal favourite was the slow cooked pork in apple juice I cooked over Easter weekend. Simply threw in a pork joint, some chopped apple, carrots, chopped onions and then a hefty amount of apple juice. Served with mash and veg, it was truly delicious. If anyone has any personal favourite slow cooker recipes, I'd love to hear them!

Trying
To get cracking with my last two university assignments! There's something about being stuck at home all day everyday that is just making it difficult to settle down and put my 'productive student' hat on. I normally like to do lots of my work sat within my uni buildings or in a coffee shop so adjusting to getting it all done at home has proven tricky. I'm starting to get there though! I've set up a nice desk space and have started to get into a good daily routine. I find that having 'slow' mornings (filled with lie ins, hot drinks, yummy breakfasts, reading and yoga) help me to get my head into the right mind-space to have a truly productive afternoon.

Obsessed With
Animal TikToks! I'll admit that I'm slightly uncool when it comes to TikTok and don't quite 'get' the obsession with all of the little dances people do but boy am I here for all of the quality animal content we've been blessed with. My personal favourites are @OliviaVanFoxFace, @_mochafrappe_, @SealRescueIreland and @HollyandHazelnut.

What have you been loving this past month?

Why It's Ok If You're Not Being 'Productive' During The Lockdown


There has been so much talk about things you can do during the lockdown. Articles on ‘Ways to keep productive’ and ‘10 things you can do to keep busy’ have been flying off the virtual shelves. But this creates this immense pressure that we need to be keeping constantly busy. Social media has made us believe that we need to be baking from scratch, spring cleaning our entire homes, starting 6 online courses and crafting a whole jewellery collection, and all before 1pm. And boy, if I had a pound for the number of tweets about banana bread I've seen in the past fortnight, I would be laughing.

And for some people this is great. If you are one of those people who thrives when keeping busy then brilliant. Enjoy your baking, crafting, cleaning and home workouts. If that’s what keeps you content and sane during this uncertain times, do it. In such a new and challenging time we need to find a lifestyle which works well for us as individuals and run with it. If you’re a bit of a ‘Keep Busy Karen’ (as I’ve named them - how creative of me), keep doing what you’re doing and it all looks fantastic.

But I want to write an ode to those of us who have taken on more of a ‘Relaxed Rachel’ lifestyle in recent weeks. I don’t know about you, but I haven’t been remotely productive recently. I’ve kept myself occupied with lie-ins, reading, TV binge watching and more bubble baths than my water bill will appreciate. I have written a daily to-do list to add structure to my day but it’s mainly consisted of self care tasks and the necessary uni and blogging odd jobs that needed doing. And do you know what? This approach to life at the moment is ok too. If you’re going to feel better during this time taking a calmer approach and spending most of your time relaxing, do it. You’re not being ‘lazy’, you are looking after yourself in the way that suits you best. And that’s what we should all be doing right now.

Ultimately, it’s just so important to just listen to what your mind and body are telling you they need right now. Don’t feel the need to replicate the ways other people are coping with isolation, you are under no pressure to do or ‘achieve’ anything at the moment.

We find ourselves in a situation we’ve never been in before. It’s new, it’s uncertain, it’s challenging and it’s honestly terrifying, so we are all handling it in different ways. Some people like to keep busy and find that it keeps their mind at ease, whilst others prefer being calm. And wherever you find yourself on this scale, it’s ok.

The only thing that truly needs to be on our to-do lists at this time is to keep healthy and safe; that is the one thing we all need to achieve and that is why the lockdown is in place. Stay safe and look after yourself and one another.
Disclaimer - I feel the need to make a note that these photos were taken a year ago so no lock-down rules were breached, don't you worry. The 'Busy Doing Nothing' jumper just seemed ever so fitting.
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